Thursday, May 21, 2009
Alright, I've been sticking to Twitter long enough! It's time to start blogging again. Important events demand a space of their own. I won't promise I'll blog a lot, but ... some things have happened that I think...has changed my state of mind.
I didn't realise it before but I tend to keep everything in me, not telling anyone. That's why it shocked me a little when I started crying after Adeline(bless you dear girl) prayed for my mom's recovery. I thought I wasn't affected that much about my mom's operation, but apparently I am.
That's why I decided to tell the famiglia about it.
It was never my intention to tell anyone because firstly, I have no idea how they would react. I'm really uncomfortable with the whole awkward, sort of pity thing and I deal with it the way I do best - avoid it all together. Secondly, it happened so fast, the operation was just 3 hours. Poof, in a moment it was over. So... it didn't seem ... worth it? To talk about? Thirdly, I didn't want to seem like a whiner. Ridiculous, I know, in hindsight, but hey I have weird trains of thoughts.
But tonight I realise that's all bullshit. Friends are there for YOU. YOU are important in their lives no matter what you might tell yourself. So I believe I need to change. I need to include my friends in the important events of my life because if they affect ME, they affect THEM. And it's the same for them.
I do want to know any events that affect them, emotionally or physically. Which leads to another amazing event tonight. |D
HAZ HAS LOST HER ORAL VIRGINITY. (as said by Sarah; I'm assuming not many people know I changed urls. HEEHEE)
FIRST ONE OUT OF ALL OF US. I would collect that bet if someone had bet against it. XP Then again, Haz has always been attractive. Heehee.
It's kind of shocking, definitely. I mean, I spent a whole combined minute going "WHAT?" at the phone at Shang, Sarah and Haz. Lol. That and a lot of squealing. (It sounds terribly gross!) At the same time it's also one of those "OMG wow I wonder how it feels..." moments.
Hm.
So right, my advice to you Haz is... Don't rush too fast! If you think he's rushing it, take a stand! (BE A MAN, DO THE RIGHT THING! /shot) Also, maybe... stick with it for a bit longer? If you really really don't feel anything, I suggest you break up. OvO If he really likes you, but you don't like him, you'll be leading him on and that's horrible. D: And IF he doesn't like you and only sees you as a booty call, DUMP HIM LIKE LIGHTNING PLZ.
And don't let those nice things he do cover up his flaws! There are always other fishes in the sea who can do the exact same thing. :3
About Mirul... Actually, I was shock to learn that. I really really didn't know. Call me dense but YEAH I thought it was all jokes and harmless fun. I had suspicions alright! But... LOL. Wow. Really surprised me.
I can't really say it's all not your fault but then again it's NOT your fault in most parts. It's not your fault he didn't say anything about it. It's not your fault you just don't see him that way enough to initiate something. It's not your fault Golden River is so aggresive. It's not your fault unrequited love exists.
So don't feel too bad ok? Just stick to your plan of giving him time to cool off, he can't be mad forever. :S I'll try talking to him to see if I can help smooth things over.
One more thing... SMOKING. Yeah you know my stand. And I know what you feel about it. So I won't go on about it (don't wanna be naggy!) BUT. BUT. If you continue the habit, I'm afraid I'm going to have to chase you about it. ;A;
If you feel depressed, don't have a smoke! There are always other things to cheer you up! Make smokes your last resort, not your first. Okay? (:
Wooooo okay that was one long entry! Today is just awesome. It made me realise how much I miss talking to you guys. I'm gonna make sure we can Skype alright? :D
Cheers and until the next event, I shall be hanging out with Twitter. LOL.
I didn't realise it before but I tend to keep everything in me, not telling anyone. That's why it shocked me a little when I started crying after Adeline(bless you dear girl) prayed for my mom's recovery. I thought I wasn't affected that much about my mom's operation, but apparently I am.
That's why I decided to tell the famiglia about it.
It was never my intention to tell anyone because firstly, I have no idea how they would react. I'm really uncomfortable with the whole awkward, sort of pity thing and I deal with it the way I do best - avoid it all together. Secondly, it happened so fast, the operation was just 3 hours. Poof, in a moment it was over. So... it didn't seem ... worth it? To talk about? Thirdly, I didn't want to seem like a whiner. Ridiculous, I know, in hindsight, but hey I have weird trains of thoughts.
But tonight I realise that's all bullshit. Friends are there for YOU. YOU are important in their lives no matter what you might tell yourself. So I believe I need to change. I need to include my friends in the important events of my life because if they affect ME, they affect THEM. And it's the same for them.
I do want to know any events that affect them, emotionally or physically. Which leads to another amazing event tonight. |D
HAZ HAS LOST HER ORAL VIRGINITY. (as said by Sarah; I'm assuming not many people know I changed urls. HEEHEE)
FIRST ONE OUT OF ALL OF US. I would collect that bet if someone had bet against it. XP Then again, Haz has always been attractive. Heehee.
It's kind of shocking, definitely. I mean, I spent a whole combined minute going "WHAT?" at the phone at Shang, Sarah and Haz. Lol. That and a lot of squealing. (It sounds terribly gross!) At the same time it's also one of those "OMG wow I wonder how it feels..." moments.
Hm.
So right, my advice to you Haz is... Don't rush too fast! If you think he's rushing it, take a stand! (BE A MAN, DO THE RIGHT THING! /shot) Also, maybe... stick with it for a bit longer? If you really really don't feel anything, I suggest you break up. OvO If he really likes you, but you don't like him, you'll be leading him on and that's horrible. D: And IF he doesn't like you and only sees you as a booty call, DUMP HIM LIKE LIGHTNING PLZ.
And don't let those nice things he do cover up his flaws! There are always other fishes in the sea who can do the exact same thing. :3
About Mirul... Actually, I was shock to learn that. I really really didn't know. Call me dense but YEAH I thought it was all jokes and harmless fun. I had suspicions alright! But... LOL. Wow. Really surprised me.
I can't really say it's all not your fault but then again it's NOT your fault in most parts. It's not your fault he didn't say anything about it. It's not your fault you just don't see him that way enough to initiate something. It's not your fault Golden River is so aggresive. It's not your fault unrequited love exists.
So don't feel too bad ok? Just stick to your plan of giving him time to cool off, he can't be mad forever. :S I'll try talking to him to see if I can help smooth things over.
One more thing... SMOKING. Yeah you know my stand. And I know what you feel about it. So I won't go on about it (don't wanna be naggy!) BUT. BUT. If you continue the habit, I'm afraid I'm going to have to chase you about it. ;A;
If you feel depressed, don't have a smoke! There are always other things to cheer you up! Make smokes your last resort, not your first. Okay? (:
Wooooo okay that was one long entry! Today is just awesome. It made me realise how much I miss talking to you guys. I'm gonna make sure we can Skype alright? :D
Cheers and until the next event, I shall be hanging out with Twitter. LOL.
Vital regions invaded at 2:05 AM.
